wow, you have no idea how reading this made me so happy. and thank you for sending me a message again, i was worried about you, and i’m not making it up. you can always talk to me, i do want to know if you’re doing ok. i’m so happy that you’re ok. life is full of surprises, that includes shitty stuff too. but in the end it will always have something better to make up for those shitty stuff.
keep staying strong, love. <3
do you have line? if you do, i can give you my ID.
im sorry about my laate reply. ):
its ok, and this is not stupid. if you want, we could talk. you can come off anon. I wont post any of the things we talk here. but you can also stay anon, if you want. , i know that these thoughts its hard to ignore, but you gotta set your mind on something else, something that will distract you from these thoughts. I’ve been doing this for a while, it doesnt work fully, because at the end of the day, they come back, and i cant ignore it. but you gotta try, you gotta stay strong.
why do i still have them?
you’re not seeing a psychologist then? if not, you should talk to your parents, its the hardest thing to do, and there’s no easy way of telling them. tell them how you’ve been feeling, its not going to be easy, we’re always scared of them just saying that all we want is attention, and thats why is so difficult to tell them. but you gotta face that fear, because you DO need help, before it becomes even more serious than already is. if they know how you were depressed when you were 11, i think they’ll Understand you. but if you’re seeing a psychologist, don’t hide anything from your psychologist. they’ll give you the medication you need.
I could post about how hard still is for me to wake up in the morning, how i hate lying to my friends, and to myself, that I’m all better. but i know I’m still afraid, And that i can’t even trust anyone, not even my family. and sometimes, i still think about suicide. life hasn’t been my best friend, it’s more like my worst enemy. and to think that it’s all here inside of my head, and i can’t seem to get it out. what’s worse than that is to see that my followers are going through the same thing. i feel like i should do something to help, there are people younger than me sending me asks telling me how they can’t take it anymore, and that they’ll commit suicide. and it makes me want to be with them, to just hug them, and tell them that it’s going to be ok, that we’re going to be ok, and that they’re not alone. i know, I’ve said this a thousand times, but it is true, and i DO care. i simply hate to see people suffering. and some people doesn’t even have anyone to count on, so, all i want to do is to help you guys. we could help each other, and maybe, it’s going to be ok. we gotta stop feeling down, and we gotta start living. it is not fair to us, we’re also human, and we shouldn’t let other people bring us down.
anyone with any kind of problem, and just needs someone to talk to, i am here. i might not be a big help, but i promise you, I’ll do my best. i do care, and i do want to help you start smiling.
i love you all, even though i don’t really know you.
you’re welcome. im sorry if i took too long to respond.
don’t let your fears blind you. life is something that is given to us for us to enjoy the beauty in this world. suicide is never the answer."